Update on the Life of Shana

Hello all. Sorry for not posting earlier; I've been so busy. A lot has happened since I posed last time. It seems things in my life happen one right after the other in such short periods of time.

First off, Josh and I have been broken up for about a month and a half. The long distance just wasn't working and when I was honest with myself, I realized I was not in love with him. I have been fortunate enough to have experienced true love twice now, and it just wasn't happening with him. I loved him, and still do, more as a friend. We still talk occasionally on the phone.

For a long time now I have been in love with a man named Eric Wilson (no, we aren't related). We went on one date almost a year ago. He is currently stationed in Iraq and we write to one another. I really feel he could be the one for me. I dated him before I was ever involved with Kyo even. But even after all my other relationships, I have never rid myself of my feelings for Eric. We are so different in a lot of ways too. But, like they say, opposites attract. He does not want a relationship right now though because he wants to figure out his own life first before involving anyone else. I am trying to deal with that and move on, but it's hard sometimes. I miss him so much and I've only met him once.

I got some terrible news from my ENT doctor recently. I will have to have surgery on my left ear because there is a cist in it that is eating away at my eardrum and ear bones. I have basically deaf in that ear and it often hurts. I know it is for the best, but I am absolutely terrified of havign surgery. This will be my first one. I go back to my ENT doctor Wednesday to set up a date.

Auditions for my college's production of Cinderella are this Tuesday. I am really excited! We have to sing one minute of a showtune and I chose (finally!) My Favorite Things for The Sound of Music. I sang it in competition in high school, so I'm fairly confident about it. There are eight female roles available. I really want to be cast! I love musicals! I am currently doing tech work for our production of The Glass Menagerie, but I much prefer acting.

I'll try to update more often... but don't hold me to that! *lol*