TJ and I got back together

Well, it's been one hell of an emotional week for me. I've been through so many emotions, it's not even funny - a lot of times more than one at the same time. Since TJ broke up with me, I've felt angry, worried, confused, scared, stressed, insecure, depressed, etc.

TJ called me for the first time after our break-up a few days later. I had convinced myself that I would never hear from him again because he had told me he would call earlier than that. He was upset too, but after talking he said although he wanted to be with me that he couldn't. That just made even more confused. I was getting through the grieving process, but after talking to him, I didn't know what to do.

We talked again the next day. TJ and I talked about what had happened and we both apolgized, and told each other we loved and missed one another. He said he still didn't know if we should get back together, but that there was still hope.

During all of this, I kept getting so much advice from friends and family that I didn't know who to listen to or what to do. I had never felt so overwhelmed. Some people were saying not to call him again and let him do all the calling, and other people were saying to call when I felt like it and not to make it into a game.

But anyway, after all of this, TJ and I decided to meet in person last night. It just so happened to be exactly a month since we had met. We cried and talked and kissed and hugged, and then talked and cried some more. We definitely got a lot of things off our chests. We decided that we deserved a second chance and so we are now back together.

I won't lie. The hurt hasn't completely gone away. My trust in him was shaken, if not completely shattered, and it will take some time for me to completely heal. And I'm sure he feels the same way when it comes to me. But I love him and he loves me and I do believe we deserve one more shot.